Only when you lose it...

.. do you know how much its worth!!

I have a memory of me and a roommmate almost four years ago going to university and feeling lonely because we are all alone in Ramadan. But that wasn't the worse scenario because we have been good roommates and things weren't hard.

But this year, it is very different. I am already going through hardship with my roommate which seems to smooth down a bit, I miss my family so much even though I am used to being away but for reasons I don't seem to understand, I just miss all dreadfuly.

A person told me that Ramadan's spirit should be within us, which is very true, but the environment is the society itself, so without them, it ain't Ramadan at all. But let us look at the bright side of it, I and alot others appreciate this month very much understanding better the importance of family which we, Arabs, are very fond of. The focus is not on an individual but a family...

A gathering is what we seek in every occassion because of the spirit it brings to the place. And that is exactly what made us, arabs, gather together for Iftar at my place. I was the CHEF and bet mom would be very PROUD of me (I miss her and her food so much, I miss being close to her, her caring and love.)We were a total of 12 including a Hungary visitor who is a really nice friend to have over. After breaking the fast with Date, all prayed together and then we all sat and have Iftar. Then we had brownies with icecream and a traditional "geemat".

This was the only time I felt so warm and somehow felt I am home with all the happiness and laughter surrounding me. Now I wish that every day would be simply the same, but it wouldn't always be all that happy ..

At least now I appreciate it all... from every single family member, friend, to the streets of Dubai, to the old part of it ... to the culture and tradition ... to the religion.

Simply miss it all...

To Worship "Him"

The holy month is almost over which saddens me. Every year, this month is granted a lot of time and effort focused mainly on worshipping Allah. It is in this month that a Muslim is tested on his belief and his faith and only if one has prepared himself before wards, would he/she grant him/herself passing Allah’s test.

It is a simple equation of deeds, conducts and manners that a Muslim should meet to succeed. But with this simple equation comes a lot more difficulties to acquaint oneself to such level of performance. A lot think Ramadan is one month in which you either pass or fail it, but I believe Ramadan is the whole calendar. The reason behind it being said is a simple example, education exams. As a university student, in order to grant one a high grade and thus a high GPA esp with many courses taken each semester, the student should watch himself and plan it properly. In other words, he should work for the whole semester to attain such grade and the exams are the determination of him succeeding and passing the whole semester. So if it wasn’t for his hard work during the whole semester, he would have made it through with high grades, in all courses, or most.

So, Ramadan is almost over, and the last ten days are the most important to really give time and worship Allah as much as possible. But bear in mind, it is not the time you give, but rather the devotion that really matters, to devote your heart and mind towards Allah and purely worship him detaching yourself from this life.

May Allah bless all and grant you all that is best for you, cause not everything one asks for is for one’s goodness. Just ask Him and He shall grant you what you deserve. Have faith in Allah and cleans your heart from all the dirt and be honest and sincere when worshipping Him, cause He knows it all.

الهي عظم البلاء وبرح الخفاء, وضاقت الأرض ومنعت السماء, وانت المستعان واليك المشتكى, وعليك المعول في الشدة والرخاء...