If...

If you were here with me
I would have felt the support
and security of ur closeness

If you were close
I would have lived a stress free life
full of happiness and enjoyment

If you lived with me
I would be so dependable on you
and never fear lonliness

If you shared a life with me
I would never be sad
because I will always speak up

If you listened to me
I would carry no heavy burdens
and always keep smiling

If, if , if ...

BUT..
Thank God YOU AREN'T CLOSE
because if you were
I would have never learnt it all
and would have stayed
the same old me!!

Agony

A lot of pain in my heart that
grows everyday as it passes by.
I am in agony because my heart is empty
and there is nothing that supports me in this misery I go through.
I have lost everything through my ignorance
and am left to suffer alone.
I weep every night on my pillow,
the only to see my pain,
and cry for an angel to take my hand
and guide me through this all.

I can die from loneliness, homesickness, or even boredom
But this that am going through
Is killing me, more than anything else
I just wish I can fill my heart
With more love to everything
Than aching it with soreness to which
Are not necessary.

I am speechless,
and there is not much that I can say,
because none can understand my agony
and none can I trust to share with
not because I cannot trust any,
but because I only speak to those that are close
and they are very few, to whom
I do not want to make their life miserable